Hey boys. Wanted to show you the gray Jockey Elance bikini briefs I'll be wearing to bed. Good night.

The Thanksgiving weekend is winding down & I'm wearing navy C-in2 low rise briefs w/orange trim. Enjoy the day!

Thanksgiving Weekend

It's Saturday evening and I'm headed home. Spent last evening and today with BL and we had a really good time. We met last night in Brooklyn for A Streetcar Named Desire with Cate Blanchett at BAM. I was 30 minutes late for dinner at Peter Beisl across the street from the BAM Gilman Opera House. I should have just skipped it. The moules that I ordered the first time I ate here were now chewy and unappetizing. The service was attentive but inefficient. Where was the bread? The lesbians next to us didn't help. I think they were making fun of us. Just penis envy. Anyway, off to the BAM Harvey Theater for A Streetcar Named Desire with Cate Blanchett. The space was cool and the performace great, but I kept thinking how Cate's Blanche DuBois reminded me of some southern drag queen. This may have been appropriate because the audience was filled with boys who didn't go away for the Holiday weekend and their partners. BL was popular last night. He knew every homo who walked passed our seats.
Stayed overnight at BL's place in the West Village. We actually managed to sleep through each other's snoring and my tossing and turning. We tried to have sex this morning at 7-ish but I couldn't keep my erection - even after 3 days of not jacking off - and he couldn't cum. We need to work through some performance anxiety issues, but my erection actually lasted longer than the last couple of times we had sex. After a quick shower, we went back to sleep.
We were up and about at around 11am and head to brunch at Bus Stop down the street on Hudson. The hash was salty and the eggs runny. Not my day for eating out. We decide to go uptown and see the Kadinsky exhibit at the Guggenheim.

It was fun and relaxing just to people watch and stroll by the art. I don't get Modern Art at all. I especially did not appreciate Anish Kapoor's Memory. It was all steel, drama and no substance. There were tons of tourists which is primarily the reason why I don't go to museums here in New York. I make it a point to just deal with it when I'm in Europe.
We walk through Central Park after the Guggenheim and it's cold. I'm still trying to get acclimated to the 50 degree weather. Winter is coming in 3 weeks. We stop by Frank Stella. I've been meaning to hit this store. I fell in love with their Loro Piana storm system coat at $599. Pricey, but more reasonable than the $1200 + for a Loro Piana storm system coat. BL asked it I wanted it for Christmas. Nope. Way too early in the relationship. I did agree to buy him the Lucia duvet and shams from Crate and Barrel. $260. Think investment...
We're both hungry and decide to have burgers at EJ's on Amsterdam Ave. Not as popular as it was in the past. Trash then, trash now.
We stop by the Barneys Co-Op on Broadway and BL picks up a Marc by Marc Jacobs blackwatch trouser for around $150. Fabulous in a more modern fit. I
found a navy scull cap similar to the J.Crew pair I lost a couple of years ago in Bloomingdales. $25 and incredibly hot. Only issue is the cap is midnight and not black. Barely noticable though. I guess I can only wear this with my camel J.Crew overcoat.
We take the 2 back downtown and spend the next couple of hours on the Internet and kissing. Had a great time with BL. My guard is coming down and I'm falling for him. BL is definitly digging me too. Let's watch what happens next. Peace for now.

Happy Thanksgiving boys! I'm wearing Jockey Elance bikinis. Wore them since hign school.

I'm off today. Yeh! I'm wearing Ginch Gonch Carolina Blue w/red piping low rise briefs. Hot!

Just cruised @ the $1 section in Target by this cute older dude. Where did he go?

Filipino breakfast this morning in Bergenfield, NJ. The food is unhealthy but good!

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I hooked up with Ian and Joe yesterday and the sex was good. I so wanted to get fucked by Joe and his almost 9" cock. I'm getting hard thinking about it. Just got behind me an fucked me doggy while I sucked on Ian's cock. Wow! The butt plug worked. He got his cock in there with the minimum of fuss. It was great to feel his dick deep inside my hole. Damn! I wish he used more lube. He could have fucked me all night. It was Ian's turn next. His cock is average and he fucked me while I was on his back. It was good also but I had him pull out when it got uncomfortable. Joe wanted to ride me so he slipped on a condom after blowing my hard cock. He squirmed on mu pole for a couple of minutes until he could take it any more. I'm still trying to figure out how guys can take big cocks for more than a couple of minutes in porn. It's a challenge. Ian came but Joe didn't. Not sure why. He always does. I needed this pounding because I haven't been getting any from Bill. He also hasn't been fun lately. Am I settling. He's cute mature and is really into me. What else can I ask for. More sex! I'll top him if he tops me.

BL & I had the BF conversation last night & we are official. I guess that means no more 3some or hookups. Maybe we can hookup together?

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I've been horney as hell lately and I was hoping that BL would be able to pound my hole last night and when asked responded with an unenthusiastic response. That in addition the text last night saying he was too tired to do much of anything. So what should I do? I'd like to get fucked too and I'm ok with fucking his as raw. I don't want this to be an open relationship and I'm not sure if I want to be one of those couples looking for a 3rd person every night. Maybe I'm ahead of myself. I guess we should wait for the relatioship conversation first. Wait an see.

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I haven't written much of anything for the last two weeks. I've been emotionally and physically drained from work and really busy with Bill. To top it all off I haven't been going to the gym and I've been trying to get over this cold. I also think vitamin c tabs make me more grumpy. Thankfully I'm slowly getting back to the groove with th gym. I'm not sure if I should switch, but I'm most accustomed the 41st st. NYSC.

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Just ended a really fun night with Bill. Thankfully, because my day at the office was pretty bad. We had unprotected sex before dinner at the Tavern on Jane. He mounted me while I pounded his not so tight hole. He got off and I didn't, but the fact that I kept my hard on was a major accomplishment. Anyway, we had dinner at Tavern in Jane in the West Village and the Prime Rib was good. This no good monkey that got on on 42 street essentially pushedy feet aside. I have bigger fight to battle that some ghetto bitch on the A train. Anyway, the crowd was very West Village, a mixture of gay and straight hip. No bridge and tunnel here. Dinner came to $100 fairly reasonable in this hood. Bill wanted me to stay over but we both snore and I really need to catch up on sleep an the gym, tomorrow am. I'll stay I'll stay over tomorrow night. We're planning to go to his friends anniversary party tomorrow night. You know how I am at parties were I don't know anyone. The last one year ago was a complete disaster. I really had a fun night with Bill. He did mention the L word, but not in that context. I'll keep the expectations low even for now. Who knows what will happen.

I was in some funk yesterday after my meeting with Len and Harry. I thought it just went ok. Harry talked for most of the meetig and let me respond to questions that he didn't have answers for. I don't remember if the last prep meeting me had was like this. I should remain focused on the next steps as apposed to dwelling on stuff like this. It's only an issue if Harry says so and he hasn't yet so I need to just get over it. Use this as an opportunity to get my A game up. Our next meeting won't be until Thursday so I need to be well prepared for that one.

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I'm on the A train uptown listening to a bunch of blacks kids trying to entertain the commuters with their version of "music". I can't keep a straight face!

Anyway, last nights pounding was really good. It started very late at 10:45pm but it was well worth it. Joe and Ian are absolutely adorable boy. Joe is a farm boy from Minnesota and Ian is Filipino from Australia. So. Joe and I kiss each other with some serious tongue action. I pull Ian over and start sucking face with him while Joe is sucking on my cock nice and deep. Ian starts to finger my hole and I ask him if he wants to fuck my ass nice and good. I start to suck on Ian's uncut cock and he begins to hold my head and starts to face fuck me. I gagged a couple of times but it was great. The next think I know is Ian flips me over and starts rim my hole while Joe sucks on my cock. I try to get Joe's nice thick cock in my mouth, but can't. I just suck and lick it. Ian takes a hit of poppers and I make sure I get a wiff. I'm not sure it I was really horny or what, but the sex felt great. Anyway, Ian put on a condom and my legs are up in the air. He gets that nice sized cock in my hole and starts pounding me while I suck on Joe's cock. I kept slapping and tugging on Ian's ass telling to fuck my hole hard and good. I wanted him to het that cock in me deeper. I flip over, get on my stomach and Ian mounts me and pounds me more while I suck on Joes cock, lick his balls and rim his pink hole. Yum. Ian kept fucking my hole and it felt great. Joe tells me he wants to get fucked. I put on a condon and slide my cock into his hole a little too fast. He was in pain but I was not going to pull out. I'm now on top of Joe and wait for Ian to get his cock back in my hole while I fuck his boyfriends. The three of us were in heaven. Ian pounded me good while I fucked Joe hard. Good shit.

Got the best pounding ever. Wow! Ian fucked me while I fucked Joe. We are both sore. Will be slightly late to the office tomorrow morning.

Almost 11pm in E. Harlem. Hopefully I don't get mugged waiting for Joe to buzz me in. Can't wait to get fucked!

Waiting for Joe's call. Really getting hard waiting for this threesome to happen. Will post how it goes.

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Went to go see Paranormal Activity with Bill and the movie was just ok. It was mildly scary and a little silly. We ate burgers at the Dish afterwards. Waiting to hear from Joe on the threesome. Not sure if I want it to happen or not. Bill and I have not had the exclusively dating conversation so it's fair game. If I can do this then Bill can too until we have that conversation. How would he react if he knew I was still having sex with other men and I can't even get it up for him. Not sure and don't know. It may be a non-issue if Joe does not call back. Whatever. Should I initiate that conversation or should I wait for Bill.

It's the Sunday after my 40th birthday and I'm off to see Paranormal Activity with Bill. He seems like a great guy an I may be falling for him. I capture so many thoughts yesterday but this damn application did not save. Let me see if I can get them all down now.

We ate at La Bottega at the Meritime hotel on Friday night. It was decent Italian food. I had black pasta with baby octopus. It was spicey but good. I'm surprised because I don't normally like spicey food. We went back to Bill's apartment and watch Get Smart. He bought me a toothbrush and chocolates. Wow. Either my breath really smells or he'd like me to stay over more often. The the fun and games came next. We tried to have sex. It was so bad that I wouldn't call it sex. He took a Cialis and I popped a Viagra. He got hard and I initally did but couldn't maintain it. He did manage to get his thick cock in my ass and pound me in two positions but it started to get uncomfortable. I should be enjoying a nice thich cock in my ass but I'm not sure what was going on. Maybe I should try poppers. Anyway not only was the sex bad, but I was having a case of gas. When he pulled out, the gas released. I tried to fuck him with a semi flaccid penis but couldn't keep it up. I felt like crap. I hope it didn't frustrate him. I know I would be. We took a shower together and talked and held each other in bed. Boy, are we emotionally scared / fucked up. We both have insecurity issues. Maybe we were really meant for each other. We had Saturday brunch together at Viceroy. That place still sucks. Brunch was just ok. Spent the rest of the day with dad.
I need to be relaxed with Bill. Have no expectations on the outing or the sex. I should just be myslef. Well at least a nicer self.

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I just typed over 1600 characters in my blog and I just lost it. I detailed what happened last night, and I'm pissed. I need to capture my thoughts later.