Less than 3 weeks before my 40 birthday and I'm having sex with practically responds to my to my profile on Manhunt or Adam4Adam. What the hell am I doing. I wouldn't have ever imagined myself doing this at the beginning of the summer. Wow! I've come a long way and my comfort zone has grown dramatically. I am enjoying myself. This is far better than just staying at home jacking off or doing nothing. Right. I don't feel cheap or whorish. I'm trying to make up for all the lost time and sex. I need to make sure that I don't put myself in dangerous situations. I don't want to be a statistic.

I wouldn't have met Bill if I didn't place my profile on Adam4Adam. He seems like a nice guy, but I'm concerned about his issues. He has medical issues and is on Prozac. But will these prevent a great relationship from developing into someting special? I'm not sure. My initial impression is that he is an attractive guy with a great personality who live in a great neighborhood. He also has a great job. So what more can a boy ask for? I can answer that. I want a guy who gets, respects, loves and appreciates me. And all of this lasting more than 18 months. Tall order. But this boy wants to dream!

I'd like to take things really slow and not put a high expectation on everything. He seems to like things slow except for the sex. I need to load up on Viagra and make sure that I give him exactly what he wants. I also need to make sure that I speak up and out when there are issues. No mousy boy here. I promise to make this work!